Saturday, November 28, 2009

Thanksgiving weekend

I hope everybody had a safe and happy holiday! I can't believe my four day weekend is almost over! But, I've had a great time off.

Thanksgiving we spent at my parent's house with a couple of my aunts. We had chili and spent the afternoon talking. Then that evening Chris and I made an awesome dinner and had two of our very good friends over. Since my Mom decided to just make chili that day, since her side of the family got together later on in the weekend, I just had to make a traditional Thanksgiving dinner! Especially since I can indulge this year without too much guilt. It was a great holiday spent with family and friends.

I didn't join in on the black Friday madness. I just don't do that sort of thing. Saturdays at the grocery store stresses me out. We did however go out later that afternoon when it was much calmer.

Today was my side of the family's big get together. It was a very nice time and great food, again! But, it was hard to go through another holiday without our daughter. A lot of the time I just stop and think what it would be like for her to be here with us. How different it would be. Then again, this little baby growing inside me wouldn't be here if she was. It's just so hard. It's hard to wrap my head around sometimes. I have to shake all the thoughts away and just be in the moment.

I am really not ready to go back to work, but then again I am ready to get this week over with. December 8th is our next appointment and I am ready to see how our little baby is doing in there. I'm nervous to be honest. I'm just waiting for the bad news to drop. I know I can't be like that, but it's hard not to when you have had all your dreams shattered.

I am thankful that we got to meet our daughter for the very short time she was with us.
I am thankful for the new chance, the new life that I am also looking forward to meeting.

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

11 week bump




It's a little blurry and I kind of posted it late since I'll be 12 weeks tomorrow. And that's not an outtie already!!! It's my shirt I promise!

Monday, November 16, 2009

Warning...this could get messy

So, this is pretty much a rant and I apologize ahead of time for this, but sometimes you just have to get it off your chest. There is a girl at work that every time I mention about something aching or happening to me that I link to my pregnancy she insists that it's not related to my pregnancy. What the heck? She has no idea what is going on with my body! I'll just give an example from this morning. When I woke up my side hut, my lower side. So, when she asked me what was wrong today I told her my side hurt. She's like "from what?" and I said, "probably from me getting fatter". Now, before I tell you what she said, let me back up my theory of why I thought this was the reason for my side hurting. I read on one of my MANY pregnancy info sites that one of the symptoms I could be having is my side hurting from stretching, growing, ya know. Well, she says "I highly doubt that." I could understand if this girl that I work with has never been pregnant before, but her child is 13 years old! She's been through all this before. This just adds on to all the rest of the comments she's made. She treats me like I have never been pregnant before. About a month ago, before we got to hear this baby's heartbeat, she proceeded to mimic what a baby's heartbeat over the Doppler sounded like and kept saying "that's what it sounds like"! I'm thinking "um hello, where you not here like a little over a year ago when I went through all this before?" Maybe I'm just sensitive or emotional or what ever else I want to blame it on, but it really irks me that she makes comments like this.

Besides that, everything is going great! My stomach seems to be growing, so that is good. I have another three weeks until my next OB appointment and another four weeks until the cerclage! YAY! I started walking today on my break at work. Hopefully I will keep at it so I "don't gain too much weight" as my cardiologist said two weeks ago. Oh, plus I went to the dentist last Tuesday and my gums still hurt and I have a sore that I just keep irritating when I brush. It's really painful and I wish it would heal. If it doesn't heal this week I'm going to make a phone call to my doctor. I know your gums are sensitive when you are pregnant, but dang!

Thanks for listening to me gripe!

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Recommended sleep time for a pregnant woman is???

So, I fell asleep at my desk at work today. I was so stinking tired after lunch that I just thought I would lay my head down for a few minutes and close my eyes for just a second and I just kept nodding off! Thank goodness everyone knows I'm pregnant or they would think I needed more sleep. I went to bed at 9 o'clock last night!

There should be some kind of rule enforced about nap time after lunch, especially for pregnant women. Like kindergarten...when you refused to sleep! Now, I would give up an hour of pay to have that back!

I also sneaked down to the radiology department early this morning to have one of the techs peek at my little baby. I work at a hospital and they all know what I've been through, so the girl that was down there didn't hesitate when I asked. Even though I just had an ultrasound on Tuesday. Anyway, baby was there and bouncing around with a strong heartbeat at 183! I'm going to keep my freak outs to a minimum and try not to bug them too much!

I really should be in bed now, but I'm working on being a better blogger.  But, I'm headed there now! Night!

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Two of a kind

Like my pregnancy with Darcy, I do not have any morning sickness. It's actually the opposite. If I don't eat, I get nauseated and I get a headache. I won't feel like eating, but I force myself to cause I know it will make me feel better. So, I just eat often to prevent that from happening! I do consider myself pretty lucky in that aspect. If it wasn't for the positive pregnancy test and all the appointments I'm going to I wouldn't know I was pregnant. Oh yeah, and the constant trips to the bathroom. How could I forget those?

I'm craving sub sandwiches . Turkey and cheese subs with lettuce and mayo is what I'm usually asking for. Unfortunately, I am craving sweets. Halloween was a killer. I ate way too much candy! Darcy didn't like sweets. I never craved them with her. I so wish I could turn away sugar now. But, I've been able to control myself a little more...even though I just devoured fried ice cream from the Mexican restaurant in town. Bad me!!! 

I feel so much better that we have told everyone. I'm still nervous that I will have to reverse it all and give people ugly news. But, our doctor (the same doctor that took care of me with Darcy) seems confident that we will get a healthy baby this time around. He's been so good to us and he cares so much.

Yesterday we saw our baby. In a short three weeks he/she went from this...


A blur with no real distinction from head to bottom turn into this.....



A baby with two arms and two legs that wiggled around and even gave us a little wave.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

I'm pregnant!

I've been keeping it a secret for a little while now. We are so very excited, but also so very nervous. We went for our third ultrasound today and everything looks "excellent". That is a direct quote from our doctor! The heart rate was 185, up from 140 three weeks ago! I'm 10 weeks, so we have a little while before we find out if we are having another girl or a little boy.

Since our daughter was born at 21 weeks from my lovely incompetent cervix, I just love that name, but I guess it gets the point across, I will be getting a cervical cerclage at 15 weeks. He described it like this, " Have you ever had one of this draw string purses? It's pretty much like that". HAH! Whatever as long as it holds this little baby in there! The surgery will be December 17th. I'm a litter nervous and I'm sure I'll be a lot nervous as the date gets closer, but I will do whatever it takes!

Today our little baby was moving around a lot in there and was showing off quite a bit. Just like big sis. She always was a wiggler and loved to move those arms all about too.

We are so proud of our new little baby and without further adieu...