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Thanksgiving weekend

I hope everybody had a safe and happy holiday! I can't believe my four day weekend is almost over! But, I've had a great time off.

Thanksgiving we spent at my parent's house with a couple of my aunts. We had chili and spent the afternoon talking. Then that evening Chris and I made an awesome dinner and had two of our very good friends over. Since my Mom decided to just make chili that day, since her side of the family got together later on in the weekend, I just had to make a traditional Thanksgiving dinner! Especially since I can indulge this year without too much guilt. It was a great holiday spent with family and friends.

I didn't join in on the black Friday madness. I just don't do that sort of thing. Saturdays at the grocery store stresses me out. We did however go out later that afternoon when it was much calmer.

Today was my side of the family's big get together. It was a very nice time and great food, again! But, it was hard to go through another holiday without our daughter. A lot of the time I just stop and think what it would be like for her to be here with us. How different it would be. Then again, this little baby growing inside me wouldn't be here if she was. It's just so hard. It's hard to wrap my head around sometimes. I have to shake all the thoughts away and just be in the moment.

I am really not ready to go back to work, but then again I am ready to get this week over with. December 8th is our next appointment and I am ready to see how our little baby is doing in there. I'm nervous to be honest. I'm just waiting for the bad news to drop. I know I can't be like that, but it's hard not to when you have had all your dreams shattered.

I am thankful that we got to meet our daughter for the very short time she was with us.
I am thankful for the new chance, the new life that I am also looking forward to meeting.

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