I am so excited about the March of Dimes walk next month! I love doing this because it makes me feel even closer to my daughter. It lets people know that she was someone that was here and they acknowledge her more. I just want everyone to realize and be aware of the things that can go wrong during pregnancy. For example, when I was pregnant with Darcy I never in a million years knew something like this could happen. That could be my own ignorance or lack of education, but I'm sure I'm not the only one unaware of a woman having a weak cervix. The night I went into the hospital before giving birth to Darcy I was in a lot of pain, but I never dreamed that I was in labor. I just thought I'd go in and get checked out and come home happy and still pregnant. The thought of coming home without my baby never crossed my mind. The March of Dimes gives mothers a chance to honor their babies that they have lost and let other know about them. I expect that day will be filled with many tears. Luckily my husband will be there with me and my dear friend that I have made through this trying time. She too lost her daughter the same way and just within a week of us loosing Darcy. Without our friendship this journey would have been more painful and much harder. Darcy has changed my life in so many ways. It's hard to think such a tiny being that was here for just a short time could have such and large impact on her family's life that still continues even to this day. I am sure it will continue for the rest of our lives.
Big disappointing day...well I guess it could have been worse. Here's the scoop. So, we went for our appointment today and we were so excited cause today was the day when we could from here on out start calling our baby the correct sex when we talked about him/her. We had told everyone that today was the day we were going to find out, if the baby cooperated that is. As the nurse took at back to the room we would be in I noticed we had followed her into the room without the ultrasound machine...I asked "I thought I was getting an ultrasound today?". She replied, "no, your are only 16 weeks and that is too early to tell". As I thought in my head "bullshit!" excuse my language, but it is not too early. I said "I thought I was 17 weeks". And she responds "well, anyhow we wait until 20 weeks for that". grrrrrrr. Me and Chris were extremely disappointed. I couldn't believe that I had gotton my hopes so high to find out and told...
Thinking of you and hoping the walk is a positive day for you.
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